The scales don't lie!

I forgot to post about this frustration of mine that has been going on for more than 38 hours now.

One evening before eating dinner, I decided to go to everyone's enemy, the weighing scale, to catch up on how well I'm doing with the whole weight-gain fight. Sadly, i didn't gain a single pound. As if that wasn't frustrating enough, I was shocked to find out that I am now only 46 kilos! Yes, I even lost more weight. 2 kilos to be exact!

I know I shouldn't have done it, but it was the right decision. If it wasn't for that night, I wouldn't have yanked myself even harder to eat more... and more... and more-ER!

It's soo frustrating when you thought you've been doing well, and all that for nothing.

I need help! Professional medical help! Calling on The Insider, Oprah, Tyra Banks, and Entertainment tonight. Yes, those are what I consider my medical team. I want to be the headlines of every show and everyone's gonna give me great gifts after my success story. (just kidding guys)

Over and Out!

Episode #001: Hospital check-up

Yes, I have ventured into the unknown... Video blogging!

I've tried it out and let's see if I get good reviews on my rookie work.

Episode #001 is about the hospital trip I've been dying to go to. You'll pretty much hear me say, "Well anyways", or maybe, "...stop...", but what the heck, I think I did pretty good. I'll just do better the next time around.

Over and Out!

Random thoughts: Obese jeans... Shopping... Friendly visit... To a healthier me!...

Obese Jeans...

So I had this thought for quite some time now, I just was not able to take the photos I wanted to make this entry possible. To start off, everyone probably knows by now how much I adore skinny jeans. I only have one pair and sadly, it even belongs to my sister. I can't buy one since men's skinny jeans are still not skinny enough for me that I have to purchase the ones for girls. If you happen to know a brand that caters to my size, let me know ASAP. So anyways, I've been seeing girls at the mall sporting skinny jeans fabuleux and noticed plus sized women wearing them too. But could they still be called skinny jeans if they're worn by non-skinny women?

You might be saying how rude I'm being for trying to label such simple idea, but to the contrary, I love it when plus size women wear skinny jeans for them. Voluptuousness has never been more beautifully flaunted than this. I just want to have an official name for it so we know what to call it.

So what do you think guys? Yes to obese jeans? Or still call them what they are?

Shopping...

My baby and I recently went shopping which was a big leap from the usual movie marathon and fine dining experiences. We had lots of fun trying to find the best deals in the small City mall we had to work with.

So here we go!

My baby bought these three items which were great! The polo shirts were great buys thanks to Molecules. The green number fits him perfectly and the pattern is superb, while the gray stripes with a bicollar is sooo flattering to his skin tone. Then he bought regular straight denim at Penshoppe in a dark blue hue which fits to him like silk. I'm really glad he chose this in his "right" size since most of his jeans I think are bigger. Can't wait till he tries them on.





I on the other hand only had one room for my purchase and I decided to spend it on this fabulous Bench cap. It's in this great soft fabric and the color is just soothing to my sight.

Friendly visit...

My cousins from Manila recently visited us and I forgot to post an entry about all the fun we had but anyways, better late than never, right?

This ladies and gentlemen, and to my fellow gay people, is my cousin's second son, AJ. He decided to play with the laundry basket so I tagged along with his game of Who wants to be a beekeeper.

Then here's her third son, Josh, who I took for a stroll on the beach for more than 8 laps just so he could sleep soundly. And thank God he did. With a little help from my P990i, my mission was accomplished.

Here's kuya paul trying to feed him with some Quake Cake...


To a healthier me!...

Okay, this might sound a bit childish, but I've forgotten about drinking milk daily. Calcium! Hello! I need it badly, especially because I think I'm at risk for scoliosis. So starting tonight, I add this to my nightly regimen.

Cheers to a healthier me!

Over and Out!

It's not funny anymore!

Cherry (a good friend of mine) and I had an amateur photo shoot in my grandmother's house and this photo scared me to death!

The theme of the shoot was supposed to be about the skinny jeans, but reality was the only theme I got. Frightening as it sounds, reality is not looking so good.

My boyfriend has always been serious in telling me I'm super skinny but I never considered it a serious thing since all I could think of blaming are my genes. Everyone in my family's thin, but of course not as emaciated as I am so I considered myself normal.



But looking at this picture, knowing I only weigh 48 kilograms being 5'9" in height, and noticing my hair is drying (not because of the daily torture from styling), only a moron would consider me normal.

When I was able to fit into the skinny jeans I was wearing in the shoot, I had smiles up to my ears. Who knew I could fit into a 27! But now, it's not funny anymore! Seriously!

The world should be focusing more on healthy lifestyles! Hard to be hit with this reality, but everywhere you try to eat is inviting you to unhealthy meals; everywhere you turn, a store loaded with cigarettes allows minors to purchase such dangerous sticks; and no one seems to be making a big deal out of the possible accidents or violence to be caused by alcohol.

A voice is carried out, but more should be heard!

I have a check-up with one of my neurologists in Sta. Mesa this coming November 9 and frankly, I'm terrified. So terrified that it's the first time I cried about such thought. Scared that they might find another clot in my brain and I have to go in for another surgery. The last one was traumatizing enough, I don't need another one.

Then I had a thought. Why not be as brave as I've been on the first surgery I've had where no nerves attacked me at all. The absence of fear surprised most of my family since I had always been the drama king queen. Then I realized. The fear was not from knowing that something is present again and that I have to go through another surgery, it was from knowing how others feel about it and how devastated they would be.

I mean, sure, they've told me about how every step of the way went during the first one. From how I've collapsed naked in bathrooms twice in two different occasions, to sending me to Manila in an Ambulance from Dagupan, and up to the part where I exited the operating room after 19 hours of surgery. But knowing that now, makes me feel for those people. Not to mention, I have my boyfriend to think about which I fear most. I've always made it a point not to hurt him, and with him knowing about it, I know it would break his heart.


Why is that only when our health is at stake do we take preventive measures? Why didn't we listen to the good ol' saying, "An ounce of prevention is better than an ounce of cure"?

So I think the best way to deal with this is by having a list! Having your to-do's jotted down and knowing which is accomplished is very effective for me. So here's my health list:

1. By January '08, I should weigh more than 55 kg. Just a little trivia, from the time I was born, I never surpassed 48kg.

2. No smoking, No alcohol, and No drugs

3. More sleep! I've heard once on television that you really don't need 8 hours of sleep. It's the quality of the sleep that should be tested and not the quantity. By 11pm, I should be asleep (examination week exempted).

There! 3 should be fine for now. I think keeping these three going could save me from Php800,000 worth of surgery for the next 50 years.

If I have learned anything from this experience, aside from the fact that anorexic models like moi should never be doing such shoots ever again, is to never take your health for granted. If you have the resources to stay healthy, then take action, it could save your life.

Looking forward to a healthier me and you!

Over and Out!